I went to the doctor recently and had the dreaded weigh-in. I hadn’t weighed myself in a really long time, because I hate focusing so much on the scale and I honestly was trying to ignore the fact that I have not been very healthy lately. And if I’m really, really being honest, it has been a lot longer than just “lately.”
So I stepped on the scale and tried to ignore it, but then I couldn’t help myself – I glanced down and saw the number. And YIKES. Before my doctor even had the chance to mention anything to me, I went ahead and let her know that I knew it was time to get a grip. And instead of saying, “Noooo, you’re fine,” she said, “Well, at least you know it’s time.”
That’s when I knew. I knew this wasn’t something I could sweep aside anymore.
My big sister has been on the fitness train forever, and for a long phase of my life, I was too. It’s not a new lifestyle to me, but it’s one I’ve been far away from for a while. She, my mom, and I decided to do a six week shred program through Gauge Girl Training. My sister did another program of hers and really saw fantastic results. She is an engineer and food scientist, which makes me feel a little more comfortable paying for a meal plan. I know I could do all of this myself, but I felt like I needed a good kick in the rear to jump start my metabolism and get me back on track.
So Mom, Emily, and I all purchased our meal plans and started a group text to help each other, keep each other accountable, and give lots of support! Andrew is on board with me 100% and supporting me through the next 6 weeks of not going out to eat or having any alcohol (nerdy date nights in our future!). My meal plan is strict, specific, and designed to cut body fat quickly while maintaining lean muscle. I’m putting this all out here because I need to be accountable. And maybe this post might reach someone and give them the lift they need to know that anyone can do what I’m doing. I am nervous about it, but I know I can do it. I’ll be checking in over the next 6 weeks to let you know how things are going!
I went to three stores to get everything I needed to get started, and then got to work rinsing, chopping, cooking, and storing my food for the week. It takes a lot of work up front, but then you get to sit back and relax the rest of the week because you know exactly what you’re eating (plus, you don’t waste money on going out to eat because you know you are wasting money on the food you have at home if you do that). My first day was yesterday, and it went so well! I ate all of my food, drank a ton of water, and already my mindset just feels so much more positive.
Alllll the groceries. It’s hard to believe I’ll eat that much by myself in a week, but I did my math carefully. I also know from experience that each week will be easier to plan for, prep for, and stick with. It takes a little while to form a habit, but then eating well and exercising regularly just become routine.
This isn’t about being thin. It’s about being in a healthy range for my personal body. It is about feeling strong and fit, having a healthy heart and lungs, and helping myself live a longer and fuller life. After 6 weeks is up, I’ll continue to eat healthy foods and exercise regularly, but I will also be able to live a little, because life happens and you have to enjoy the chocolate and the wine and cheese here and there, too.
I have thought about that doctor’s comments several times, and instead of being angry, I’m so thankful that she gave me that honesty that I needed. And you know what? It is time. It’s time to really hold myself accountable, it’s time to do something instead of complaining about something.
And it’s also time to practice being nice to myself more often. It’s a fine line between telling yourself you can improve and telling yourself you’re not good enough. I’ve come to a place where I’m trying to just accept myself where I am. I can only do my best from wherever it is that I am standing. So this is me, right now, and this is the body that I am in right now. Hating myself won’t gain results. I just have to plan it out, stick with it, and cheer on my mom and sister as we complete this 6 week challenge together.
Wish me luck!